Why do i bleed??

What do I bleed?

The moon is bright, yet the darkness overshadows it throughout.

The glass is being emptied yet again.

Pearls dropping down, wetting the deserted cheeks.

Lips restricted by watchdogs called society.

Is it abstract that I bleed?

Annadata who produces, now starves to death.

Labourers constructing homes, now turned homeless.

Students studying the constitution, beaten for following it.

Scriptwriters preparing "real" news articles.

Is it protest poetry that I bleed?

Riding in rains, cheeks wetter than the roads.

Memories making me cry and smile at once.

The empty seat besides, still holds her sweet fragrance.

The only place I wish to be with is you.

Is it heartbreak that I bleed?

Painful past overshadowing even Apollo.

Adrifted from the hurting present like a bird from its flock.

Armour less and with open arms accepting the sharp arrows of future.

All while buried in a coffin wrapped in the darkness of moonlight.

Is it darkness that I bleed?

A Letter To Self

 I don’t have any idea, as to why my words hold the sprinkled tint of positivity when all I want to write is quite dark. Oh please!!! Now, you don’t dare tell me that I am a good person because I am not. In the equation to my life, my sins have zeroed out every good thing I have been proud of. But, still I am unable to figure out why I do never lose hope on myself. Maybe I had lost hope, long before I realised it. Or, maybe I am just hanging around the cliff, waiting for my karma to stab me for my next sin, for one last time. I ain’t afraid to be dead, and yet I shiver at the thought of that particular word.

May be just because I have started knowing what it feels like, to be dead; dead over ages and ages, without people getting the time to look at your grave and mourn.

Today I smile, like the girl living next door, and I would never let you touch my healing scars again. You won’t have to. I have failed every bond, every person. I failed to be myself when people needed me.  And no matter how much I try, I can’t ever get over it. The demons that you created will haunt you until you become one of their kind.

Writing, I had thought was an escape from my reality but here I am confused about my identity. People who have known me, never actually know me. And I am glad, they don’t. The people I have failed yesterday, are holding my hand today; saying that they are there with me.  But do I deserve all this love and respect I get?

So, dear me, you know who I am, and for the last time I am saying, I am not proud of myself anymore. Yet I have the audacity to make people say sorry, when I don’t have any reason to be pissed of because I have done worse.

And do not tell me that I am good, because you too know the truth I have been hiding from.

//And dying is something I don’t deserve. And what I deserve is to live life, with the guilt swapping with my confidence forever for the sins I never thought I would commit.//

Eternity of Time

The sticking hands strike every time,

We get so much opportunities to shine.

But we like to stay in our past,

In our present making its cast.

We decorate our present with worries,

There are much to be carried.

We imagine future only with difficulties, 

Everything has two sides,

Why to see only prejudice?  

Time is slow for those who wait,

They carve their memories on slate.

It is too long for those who mourn,

There is a chance for their torn.

It is too fast for those who enjoy,

Sometimes they become time's toy.

It is too short for those who toil,

They eventually cry over the time they spoil.

Time is eternity for those who love,

They become the epitome of dove!

What Is Peace?

 What is peace? Where can we find it?

Peace can be found at a stage of mind. It can be felt when you feel happy from the inside. It can be the feeling of calmness.

Peace is when you feel same or be varied according to situation for someone at individual level, spiritual level about ethics, about relationships.

Peace can be joyfulness after completing your work, peace can be a feeling when you talk with your loved ones. Peace can be listening to your favourite songs or listening random but a beautiful song or a song that matches your mood.  

Peace can be the feeling when you write your heart out, peace can be doing your favourite part time work like sketching, reading novel, watching your favourite series, peace can be when you are with yourself, being yourself, talking with yourself, peace can be adoring nature, peace can be observing your surroundings, peace can be doing nothing, peace can be just chilling, peace can be sleeping too.

Why, I’m talking about peace?

Peace is something very important… now-a-days people of every age except children are in some anxiety… like students may be worried about their marks or their best friend is not talking to them.. or not having more toys to play… for teenager it can be about his or her career, about his parents or about his financial conditions, his first love, break up or anything else. For an adult it is about job, family and earnings.

Peace is very important when you are rushed up with your routine or having so much thoughts and then it becomes important to make your mind peaceful and make your heart calm.

So, find your peace and give importance to yourself when it’s needed. Be kind to others too and try to understand people around you.

Smytten Trial Pack Review

 Hi all, 

As I had already told you that I had bought a few stuffs to try out from #Smytten and that I will use it and let you know after a few weeks. 

So, in that trial pack, I had bought Kama Ayurveda Lavender face mist, Soultree Hand and Foot cream, Sage Aromatics Vitamin C and E serum and a make up pouch. 

Lets start the review with my favourite product the KAMA AYURVEDA Lavender face mist. 

Oh My God!! This feels so fresh. I love all the products of Kama Ayurveda, be it the Rose water, lavender or Vetiver water mist. It does not have any artificial fragrance. Though it is a trial bottle, but still the sprayer is of an amazing quality. 

Highly recommend you to use it. 

Coming to the second product. It is the Soul Tree Hand and foot cream. It contains the richness of mountain Rosemary, Kokum and softness of honey. During these Covid times, when it is highly important to wash or sanitize your hands at regular intervals, it is essential to carry a hand cream for moisturizing your hands as well. 

This intense care and repair cream has ultra-moisturising properties that keep the skin deeply nourished. Enriched with Kokum Butter, Organic Honey, Aloe, Turmeric and a blend of organic Sesame Oil, Coconut Oil, Apricot Oil and Almond Oil, it soothes dry and cracked skin and leaves it feeling soft, smooth and hydrated. 

Love the product. 

Last but not the least the final Vitamin C 20% Face Serum by Sage Apothecary. I am not so sure that i have come up to a proper decision whether or not to use this serum. So, I would prefer not to talk about this product. 

But seriously i do not find any difference after using this. But still I will talk about it in my future posts. 

Overall I loved the trial packs. And would love to try more new products in future. 

Till then stay tuned for more reviews, ratings and fun. Keep smiling and keep glowing. 

LuDo (2020)

  

GENRE- Comedy, Drama

 

Streaming On- Netflix

 

Language- Hindi

 

CAST- Abhishek Bachchan, Sanya Malhotra, Fatima Sana Sheikh, Pearle Maany, Rajkumar Rao, Rohit Saraf, Aditya Roy Kapoor.   

 

Directed by- Anurag Basu.

 

Music- Background Score- Gaurav Godkhindi, Govind Vasant. Songs- Raghav Sachar.

 

Release Date- 24^th April, 2020.

Plot- A dark comedy anthology, which was supposed to be center on unavoidable jeopardize of life. And has 4 different stories set in a quintessential Indian Metro.  

Review- As unpredictable as a game of Ludo itself is Anurag Basu’s (Ludo). It's Hands Down one of the best Bollywood films of 2020. 4 Divergent stories beautifully embedded into a single narrative. With four key players and one man, Sattu Bahiya (Pankaj Tripathi) a local gangster rolling the dice, Ludo is a crazy rollercoaster adventure with impressive performances. It's a Brilliant Dark comedy with Spellbinding writing & masterful direction by Anurag Basu. He is truly the King when it comes to making Anthology Films.

 

All the characters are very interesting and the manner in which the different tracks intersect is totally unpredictable. Hence, despite the long length (150 minutes), it keeps you hooked. As the name suggests, it's exactly like a Ludo game, every character's (Dress and surroundings) is described as the colour of each Ludo house. A true cinephile will understand and get the gist of the film immediately.

 

Dialogues are written very well. The Cinematography is visually stunning and beyond Amazing. The entire album of the film is Pure Gold. Each and every song is uniquely addictive and infused situationally, making it a sweet musical comedy-drama as the film progresses. There’s thrill, emotion, drama, humour, and romance tightly packed together with an absurd climax where the key players strive to survive. Abhishek Bachchan & Rajkummar Rao deliver exceptional performances, Pankaj Tripathi is hilarious and once again impresses us with his acting skills. The youngest member of the cast Inayat Verma as Mini is truly a revelation and will make you fall in love instantly.

 

Since it's a Dark Comedy, there are a couple of adult scenes and a few cuss words so unfortunately, you can't watch this film with your family.

 

PROs-

l Fast paced Screenplay

l  Wacky Humour

l Performances

 

FINAL RATING-  8/10

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VERDICT- Overall, I’d say it is definitely something you should not miss at any cost. It has some amazing quirky elements, great songs, unique story, engaging screenplay and above all a brilliant ensemble cast delivering their best performances. Highly

LIFE

 You come to this world, to be hard and get educated, get a good job, get married and after you have kids, you become a machine to handle stress and responsibilities. By the time your kids become self- sufficient, you start getting old. You kids leave you for work or higher studies and settle in their lives.

Life is when you come as a bundle of joy to your parents’ life. Life is the excitement of carrying the school bag for the first time. It is standing outside the classroom with your friends for punishment.

Life is crushing on that girl in the college while your friend gives you company. Life is getting rejected in a job interview and celebrating failure with a big party with friends.

It is the time you did something you are afraid of doing. Life is getting over that scratch on your new branded car. Life is decorating your new home.

Life is changing your kid’s diapers and getting late for the office the next day. Life is shedding tears of joy watching your kids perform on the stage.

Life is taking that beautiful weekend trip with the most precious persons of your life.

Life is completely a marathon at the age of 60. It is telling your life’s story and experiences to your grandchildren. Life is being successful when you watch your children prosper in life.

It is the time when you learn the usage of modern gadgets by your grandchildren.

Life is present in all these little beautiful things., so always enjoy your life and never complain about what your life is…

Fill your life with happiness and blessings of your grand parents and other elders.

Help others who do you feel needs you. ENJOY LIFE kya pata KAL HO NAA HO..

Be you

BE YOU AND THE WORLD WILL CHANGE

A bond is like an "oasis" in the desert,i.e;

In this world like a vast desert it is very difficult to find someone who is worth trusting, whom you can depend upon.Like,till now I have spent my time trying to win hearts of others, trying to have good people around me as I can whether by putting them in the pedestal, putting others on hold just to show them whenever they needed.I thought I have got a strong backbone when the world weighs down.But it's never like that and it's never gonna be alike.

But the best part is,I have learned that there's nothing you could not face in your life.When you learn how to hold yourself,that day you have become your own best friend.Then you come to the conclusion that there's no other person in the world who can understand you better than you do.It is only you who knows good and bad for yourself,only you know how to get over the situation you going through.

The truth is there is no other person who is always around you whenever you let down or every moment you facing any kinda trouble.

Because you don't endlessly seek out validation from the wrong sources because you know that the only approval and validation you need is your own.

So,just be the way you are.Try to breakout your own decisions.Try to get mature.Stop acting like a kiddo in taking decisions of your life.Grab the opportunity there and then because life never gives you another chance.

Dear Diary

Dear Diary,

I am again back to you. I don't know what I should talk to you. Or I say, what I should write.

You are the only one who listen to my every problem, my childish actions without judging me. There is no specific topic today except my life.

The life which makes me cry than laugh. Which give me people to love and to be loved, and then take them apart from me. One question that comes in my mind is WHY?ALWAYS ME. Yes, why always me. Why no one stays expect you?

People finds a reason to come to my life. Then why they don't find and give me a reason. Why? They are leaving. I start finding me at a place where, I am alone having a bunch of people around. It's my Karma, but I haven't hurted anyone intentionally.

I am still waiting for the day, when my life will be like everyone's else. Where I will have friends like people do.

Love,

Who still loves you, after all your jerks.