Best ones

BEST ONES!!

I have always been surrounded by merciless cries..

I thought even I have a life which 

would allow me to rise..

I felt that the shine of the sun could reflect my happiness...

But everything that I wished for just pushed me into loneliness.

I wished for a few people to stand

by my side...

Just for a little while, so that  over 

my sorrows I could ride...

I have been very selfish just asking 

for some attention...

You may not even understand, everyday I go through alot of tension.

I miss the ones who stood by me, they 

laughed with me and set me free...

I won't get my best ones back whose 

heart I broke..

Come on! you guys know me and all  

my silly jokes..

I remember sharing lunch boxes with 

you guys,but today while eating the 

meals without you"ll my throat chokes.

It feels so nice to see you"ll happy, 

I could have been a part of it but 

I feel my appearance is too scrappy....

How awkward it feels to greet so 

formally, when my heart so wanted 

to say that I miss you"ll desperately..

Things have changed and we are not the same, all I consider this to be a part of the game.

What will I fight with you"ll when I am only going through alot of pain...

Physical one was there but to put me 

down the mental one has come again...

I wish my best ones were there to listen 

as I have alot to share...

But I know they are too busy as they 

have alot of other things apart from

me to care.

I have stopped smiling and have even got rid of my pathetic humour...

The burdern of my responsibilities 

is slowly steadily eating me up like 

a deadily tumor...

I want to be back but I am down with a 

low self esteem, just remembered how wonderful we were as a team.

When I won't be around don't worry 

just play those videos which I sent 

you"ll on every friendship day...

You"ll know that I don't drink, so please keep for me soda and enjoy your drinks even on a dry day..

I know you'll won't invite me, but trust

me this time I won't blame you'll and 

not a single word I will say.

Remember one thing that whatever I 

did and whatever I said it was all from

my heart and never fake...

On your every birthday you will get a wish but don't you dare forget to keep 

for me a piece of your birthday cake...

I miss you guys alot and this time it's

real and not fake, please believe me

once for God's sake.